wife of [away]

ok.
clean up the mascara, girl.
the rest of your face, too.
it's time to go face them again--
can't let them see what this does to you.
you could be worse off,
you tell yourself
to a point that's true.
but they can't miss what you've felt--

get worked up again
the way you always do
every time you think it's him,
and ''not him'' breaks through you.
they make it so hard
but you. chose. this.
that doesn't make it any easier
while you want to be held, want to be kissed.