a vampire's choice

grab my hair and yank--
exposing veins and a throat,
a backbone, muscle and all that tension
encased in ivory-gold
hollows and shadows
swells and curves
a complexion of velvet, silk and cream
all touch...and all yours
to explore and blaze map out what's where
and leave your mark? it's all new to her
you can't talk her out of it; she can't hear a word
her blood is too loud, pounding in her ears
pulsing so violently beneath such delicate skin-
will you scilence it? will you leave it red?
would you indulge in such a caustic sin?
there's so much life packed into a neck,
it's so well-gaurded by shoulders day and night,
lying open, for the taking,
how could you not take a bite?

September

Once again, here we go
The whole routine starts up once more
The seasons change
And I'm estranged
From summer, and all I feel I know

There's a fire in our lives, the leaves start to burn
As life leaves them; death's a hard taste to learn
Sapphires should be cut into tears
Which we shed for grief, which we shed for fears
To bloom, first we fall; to fall, we must turn

It is pretty, once things get cold
Leading to winter, a change to behold
But Eventually, as we must remember,
Following one is another September,
And every one leaves me feeling old

honors

was it my eyes
staring at yours from way back here,
smiling
at the jokes i hear
or maybe you've just never seen fear
in the sapphires way back here?

what made you push me sir?
was it the flaming hair, the rings i wear
winking
in light here and there
was it just a whim or a solemn swear
that i could do better were i elsewhere?

was it my scilence
of taking everything in
or am i just considering a sin
i can't forget?
what made you think i could do more--
have you even figured it out yet?

6

i said allo
i feel hollow
so insubstantial, cuz
i've worked it off
my frame was overused,
i let it go abused
and now it's gone

can i stumble?
have i even got that right at all?
i want to crumble
tell me, where can i fall?
cuz my arms
can't catch me
i'm still gonna save me

verse one

i've told myself all kinds of shit that i shouldn'tve had to say
about the crap i took i shouldn'tve taken from you day after day
when you ask what's wrong with me, i'm looking for a flaw
i just realized that nothing was ever wrong at all
there's no more incentive, nothing in it for me,
so good enough for you is something i'll never be.

my two firsts

the difference between

&

&

my first loss

and

my first love,

&

&

the first beneath

and

The first above;

&

&

between

the first show of strain

and

the first recollection,

&

&

the first kiss

and

the first confession

&

&

'twixt

the first to leave

and

the first to come;

*

*

is

one is dead

&

one is gone

lovely

hey Lovely,
what's got you so down
is that there's so much more to go
so much more 'til you can drown
and now you think you know

aw, Lovely,
darling, have a cry
lay your head down and dream
i'm staying at your side,
i'll watch over as you sleep

hey Lovely,
does it make you feel good
that i'm waiting here for you,
the only one who can make me move?

Lovely ,
it'll all be fine, you'll see
i've got you, you've got me,
so can i be
your Lovely?

consequences

can't move
been burned
can't take the pain of shifting
can't sleep
been scared
don't think the ache is lifting

dead skin
on top
dead skin waiting to fall away
it burns
it aches
the only thing i can do is wait

i've had
a rough day
got a rougher night up ahead
hurts to
sit still
i'll be writhing in pain-in bed

hurts to be touched
but i want to be touched
there's nobody to touch
me